Someone Special...

Who is she? Forget your fears, Forget your pain, Forget everything that drives u insane. Forget the tough, forget the rough, Forget them all & say it’s enough... ‘Sweetest’ we say, we say her cute, Don’t ever cry, it doesn't suit. She is sweet, she has a charm, She speaks nonstop like an alarm. To her.. I have now decided to make you mine, Cause your soul is pure, heart so divine. Let me hold your hand and you’ll be fine, Will you allow these 2 hearts to shine? Time has come to step one more, Life will be a heaven, for sure. I just wish to give you all smiles, Accept me now and come out of exile. Love ya !

Darkness around, where I am?

A soul is too lonely today, deceived by destiny, hurt by people around her and she is stuck on her decision cause she has nowhere to go now. She can see nothing ahead and she can’t stay back where she is, she will fall, she will fall down to the depths of misery if she isn’t given enough support to face this brutal world, mean generation and disturbed surroundings.

Her family is scattered, and she doesn’t have too many people around to share her pain, feelings and emotions while she continues to live the worst phase of her life. She is low, she is dull, all into tears drowned deeply into the ocean of sorrows and all she need is a support system that can help her to stand strong, and face the situations.

She doesn’t even know which way to go now, she doesn’t even have courage to come out of it, cause until someone holds her hands and drag her out of it, it will not be an easy life for her. But is there anyone around her who can take this task as her own? Who can make her feel life again? Who can make her happy after this throbbing phase? No, she is surviving on her own, all alone and fighting this battle with her life without any support which is very tough as it seems to me.

I ain’t God, I ain’t an angel, I ain’t someone who knows her from the very beginning, but I am not gonna give up until she is back into smiles, for rest of her life. What if she has lost something in her life, she hasn’t lost everything and that itself is a motivation for her to stand upright, once again. And I’ll ensure that I play a ‘leach’ to suck the very last drop of pain from her life and support her in her roughest phase. I’ll make her feel proud of myself, my friendship with her though I don’t even know whether she consider me as a friend or I am still an intruder in her life.

I don’t have any rights to interfere in her life as I ain’t so close to her, but I’ll surely touch her heart, which is purely gold and ignites a feeling of a lifetime bond, a friendship which can last long, really long and ends nothing short of my life.

Girl, here comes your savior!

Best Friend ...!!

She is so mesmerising, has no comparison

Her world is so different, for some sad reason.

Unique she is, her confidence is on peek

Character so strong, but emotions so weak.

Her eyes are b'ful, and soul is so deep

I am always with you, so please don't weep.

Am I dreaming or is it just my luck

Never feel low and never give up.

Dare you feel lonely, with heart so fragile.

Am always with you, so keep up the smile.

Make me feel proud, and don't ever pretend

I have been blessed with such a lovely friend.

Though I love her, but I am not her boyfriend.

TanQ so much girl, this r'ship will never end.

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>:D<

Love ??

Time and again, we do feel that we are trailing at one direction and captivating on the other. But when we start engaging from both the ends, life becomes simpler, smoother and easy to deal with. This is the time when we feel happiness around us, and we feel self motivated and when we can actually smile! Otherwise, no matter how happy we look like, there is still a slit in our life that we always want somebody else to fill up. We generally tag that person as our soul mate.
Soul mate? Is it the same person for which you simply struggle a lot in your life and before getting whom you go through many painful experiences and hurting? IF yes, then what really force your mind to try another time, with yet another person? Aren’t you taking a risk here? Aren’t you trying too much here? Aren’t you trying to smile without a genuine reason, just because people around you seem to be happy in a relationship? But this risk looks like the only ray of hope for you; and you are always game to encash it. And this way, you move one step closer to yet another relationship in your life; you are always hopeful that this time your relationship should go fine and you can really settle down for a long time if at all you are not in a mood for yet another fling and go case. Thanks to our understanding about a relationship that really keeps us on our toes all the time because we can’t see our partner unhappy or angry for anything for which we are no one to be blamed. But still we fall in that category of human being who, most of the times are low on self-esteem and high on other aspects of a relationship. Is it love or just another compromise that you do to yourself? The same happens when one person in a relationship tries to dominate the so called bonding rather than keeping it mutual and understanding which in fact can lead to a long term relationship. Are we really blaming ourselves for all this? Nope, not at all. This way we learn how to smile even when we are not really happy. The word ‘Compromise’ when step inside a relationship makes you weak but flexible at the same time. So it’s good to some extent but you have to be very watchful while opting anything out of your person ethics, morals and lifestyle. Is it enough for a relationship to get going? I guess not completely but very close to make you feel sensible about falling in a relationship.
Watch out! You are falling in love, yet again!!

- LY !

WHAT SHE MEAN TO ME...

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When I know woods are dark, why do I feel such a spark?.

When I tremble, and feel like crying, Feeling’s so true and just no lying.

Think about those long sleepless nights, we talk, we argue and we use to fight.

Thinking of you was making me numb, Feeling so choked, alone and dumb.

Here she come and write few words, She just solved the biggest crossword.

She whispered something ‘music to ears, I couldn’t believe, it was time to say ‘Cheers’.

Though, she stays miles apart, Alone she rules this bleeding heart.

Love you I say, and she gave me a smile, Heart just stopped beating for a while.

She is life, she is surely my Love, She mean to me, more than the God above.
Mwah !

Am I just too Late?

I am running behind time, for my promises to her,

She is a flicker in my senses, and I really miss her.

She walks in my life, and promises to stay,

No matter what this cruel world has to say.

Is she a dream or I am lucky in real,

She took my heart, was it easy to steal?

Bang!! She made it, into the depths of heart,

I just fear of going apart.

I feel love, but it’s too big a dream for her

I will make her feel my love, though chances are blur.

Will she accept me just for this lifetime?

And makes me feel, music like a wind-chime.

Love you girl, enter my fate.

Or is it that “Am I just too late?”

Tears !! Although I Tried...

Well, it often happens that you don’t like to do anything. Your mental system shuts down and refuses to budge. It is stubborn and just wants to sit quietly in a corner ignoring everything around. Your self-esteem meter drops and you feel you are good for nothing. You just wish this world to stop or to be anxious about you and when it remains unperturbed, you become more irritated and sulky! Well, this is common and if you think you are the only one suffering, think again! Me too! You too! Perhaps, everyone around might have experienced this sinking feeling. It may or may not have a reason. Often, it’s without one. But, simply, it’s just the time you don’t know what’s wrong and also how to get your brains right. These are the times when you feel you have lost the ability to think or be happy. These moments are not just simply chemical imbalances but can be a result of some long term bad experiences in relationships that you have been through. Its important for you to understand that such feelings can be done away with. Or their effect reduced. How? Well, this day of mine was plagued with a feeling of incompleteness and putting myself down. All sorts of nonsense stuff which you know have no resemblance to your true self. What to do then? Well, I started out with nothing in my brain. Try not to think anything. Ahem… What did I say? I know I hurt too many people around me, but I was never selfish and I never had such intention to hurt people just because I will get something out of it. It was just that my purpose was little different what others may think or may never ever wud guess. May be I can never match the frequency with half of the people around me but when did I say that it’s required. Even though they think way too different from what my brain can accommodate but some moments make life dull when you are misunderstood. I love , I adore, I feel they are mine even when I can see myself on a way where my screams are restricted to me, myself and my lonely life. :( “Humne chhupne ki bahut koshishen ki, Kinaro se ladne ki bahut himmat ki, Par kismat ne hum pe aisi inayat ki, Ke Loot bhi gaye aur haste bhi rahe…”

Kuch Yaaden.......

1. Haste hue socha maine, yeh ansu kitne gehre hain.. Shaam dhal gayi aaj pehli baar uske bin, yeh baadal ab bhi intejaar me sunehre hain. 2. Shayad Unhone hume tanha chhod diya, ya fir tanhayiyon ne hame apna liya.... Wo to haskar jeete gaye zindagi , humne ghutkar khud ko hi maar liya... 3. Agar kabhi unhone hume hasraton se chaha hota, to shayad aaj wo khaas chehra humne dil se na hataya hota. 4. Ehsaah hai mujhe bhi un beeten palon ka, shayad jab pehli baar dil me meetha dard tha.. Aaj wo nahi hain mere paas par fir bhi wohi ehsaah hai , fark sirf itna hai ki pehle paane ka dard tha aur ab khone ka. -------------------------To be Contd......

The Lowest Ebb...

The last few days have been the lowest I have ever reached in life. Ever.And the most painful. Ever.So, I've been desperate earlier. And wretched. And miserable. Yet, little did I know that there would be a blacker day. The blackest of them all. Here to stay.This time around, there are no choices. No escape. Nothing. Yes, I have fought. All my life I have fought. Now, I have nothing left to fight for.I dreamt. I believed. I had faith. There is nothing left to believe in. STOP! Never needed to end my life. Now, there is no life to end.That is why I am writing this, right now. How long can I stop myself.I am breaking down.My tears have not stopped for the last three hours.And they won't for the rest of my life. Things can go so wrong so wrong so wrong so wrong so wrong so wrong so wrong God, Can I have an answer ?? Just an immensely corroded soul.No spirit.God, Can I please come to you?

Sorry...!!! Forgive me plz !!!!!

Oh I had alot to say Was thinking on my time... I missed you and things weren’t the same Cause everything inside it never comes out right And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die. I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue I’m sorry about all the things I said to you And I know I can’t take it back I love your words, the way you make my world go ’round And I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

Is She ???

i saw an angel in my dreams, who comes to me whenever i need her, whenever i think of her, whom i think is closest to my soul, who can be the onewith whom i m just Myself ...... I dunno abt how she looks and all, but she carries a beautiful heart, i wanna caress her hairs....and i wanna live my dreams wid her.... Just carry one doubt.. Will she step forward into my life cause i still feel lonely...

Me.... & Just Me................

With Friends @ my Bro's wedding....

Right To left : Robin,Anu,Saurabh,Surya,Money,BHABHI-ME-BHAI,Sudhakar,Harry,Mini,Preeti....

Pain or ??? I am just being Carried away....

I dnt wanna live no more There is nothing to keep me here I am so deluded and so far from the truth The way I want to live my life, it's just not happening I feel so depressed I want to do more for u . Instead I just get more n more down You have given me this life I thank you But Dear,Why can't I just lay my head in your lap And just be absorbed into you Why do I have to go thru this pain This pain hurts This pain I cannot take it no more The day I do become one with u I am gona cry so much So much..... -- Will u Come To mE Now ???

Am i Being Loved ??

Am almost lost…Curtains drawn..Interrupted sleep... Broken dreams...Moist and salted lips.. The air between us getting thin every moment.. Silence prevail… The unspoken utterances goes unheard.. The eyes speak… but your vision is blurred... Body.. soul.. mind.. everything hanging in air ..Lost in the space of time Restless sometimes… sometimes numb… All emotions becoming dumb.. Thoughts take shape.. but then again scatters. All broken pieces.. which I can’t gather.. The silence deepenThe thin air… becoming vacuum… Silence........& I am smiling... --

I M Not Begging U To Love Me........

I’m not begging you to love me. I’m not really even asking you. But, isn’t it alright if I cherish that hope in my heart? If I dream of just holding your hand, It will hurt me – not you. I will try to keep my eyes from shining when see you. And I promiseI will try not to smile a special smile When you say hello. But, please – don’t ask me not to love you.

STRANGERS

Everything is there, though nothing is as before. u r there n so am i , but the time is not as b4. gone r da days when u were with me, filling my life with treasures. once making me rich u walked away , stealing all my pleasures. holding ur hand i let myself get lost in your eyes n discovered a new life through momentary. the songs r there but the rythm is lost the eyes r there but the dreams are lost. everything is there, though everything is lost...........

SOMEONE IS THERE U KNOW........

Are u sometimes very upset, and do u believe u had no fault, n tired of hating yourselfwhen tears hurt, when u r injured deeplythen she comes...i dont know who....she's flaky, she's godly, she'll listen, she knows i know, she cares, loves me...she'll surely trust me....she cuddles me and lets me cry, she covers me,she protects me...she's just some energy, or perhaps she is my imagination: i hate to say which but she comes only in times when i am lost in thoughts...i dont even know why i am here, perhaps i am mad, or just badly injured...or mabe just simply too stupid but still, she's there u know....she doesnt leave me when i am hardest hit...she doesnt insult, she's too soft for that, she speaks huskily,and smiles and tells me that im worth....worth a million for her.... -- Will U be Mine ???

I LOVE U

I loved you in the morning our kisses deep and warm, your hair on the pillow like a sleepy golden storm. Yes, many loves before us, I know that we are not new, in cities and in forests they smiled like me and you, but now its come to distances and both of must try. Your eyes are soft with sorrow, hey that’s no way to say goodbye. I’m not looking for another as I wander in my time, walking to the corner our steps will always rhyme. You know my love goes with you, as your love stays with me, its just the way it changes like the shoreline and the sea, but let’s not talk of love or chains and things we can’t untie. Your eyes are soft with sorrow, hey that’s no way to say goodbye

The Pain Of Loss Is Just Too Much

I don't understand, The pain of loss is too much. Is that why I can't say sorry, The pain of loss is too much. I still love her, The pain of loss is too much. She gaves me pain, The pain of loss is too much. I sense in coming, The pain of loss is too much. The pain to me, From her, The pain of loss is just too much !!

Few pics...Few Memories...Few hidden words...

I just believe that i will get the world in me...!!!!

This was the best of time i hadon mountains..quite close to death..

Speed..Zoommmmm...

And those dangerous hills.. But who can stop this pyscho head...

Thats where my fans think i can do more...

But lemme tell u ..its quite risky..

Even i had blown away myself for this crazy stuff...

But..Me & pulsar will remain the best of the buddies..

Crazy !! But not enough.....

SMILES

Smile in Pleasure, Smile in Pain , Smile when trouble pours like Rain , Smile when sum1 Hurts U, Smile becoz SOMEONE still Loves to see u Smiling....!!

No Man.........

No man is an island, Entire of itself. Each is a piece of the continent, A part of the main. If a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less; As well as if a promontory were, As well as if a manner of thine ownOr of thine friend's were. Each man's death diminishes me, For I am involved in mankind. Therefore, send not to know For whom the bell tolls: It tolls for thee............

back on track.......

OVERCOMING FEAR

OVERCOMING FEAR There are many kinds of fears that need to be overcome to be able for us to achieve our personal achievement in life. Here are some of the fears: Fear of getting rejected, fear of criticism, fear of failure, fear of being poor, fear of old age, fear of death, etc. Fear Fear is opposite of faith. Fear is a state of mind. We need to understand what fear is and then we can overcome our fear. Take, for example, fear of getting rejected. Getting rejected is not the problem. The actual problem is 'the fear' of getting rejected. Therefore, our enemy is this particular fear, and not getting rejected. Another example, the fear of old age. Old age is not the real problem. The real problem is 'the fear' of being old. Fear and reality are different. We can not get rid of the reality, but we can get rid of the fear. How to overcome fear? Fear needs to be overcome. Is fear a burden in your life? Do you want to carry that burden everywhere you go? If you want to progress in life, you need to get rid of your fear. For example, you fear of getting rejected and therefore you are afraid to ask someone for a date. Now, you realise this is your weakness. What would you do? Practise this: for the first week, go out and smile to everyone you meet. Second week, try to start conversation to anyone you meet. Third week, this is a moment of truth. ..smile, make conversation,..and ask her out for lunch. If this one works out OK, then take her out for dinner. Identify your fear Try to identify your fears. Get a piece of paper and write down all your fears. Make a decision to overcome your fears. Face the problem instead of avoiding it.

meeeeee...

hi this is me.......... ya i know u will be thinking that i m looking very cute in this................

UR SILENCE IS KILLING ME...

I want to hear some words from you, no matter whatever you say, any story from past or future, or anything about today. I want to hear of the incidents which added smiles to your expression, or share with me those reminiscences, which are your priceless possession. I want to hear of the things, which you count as your favourite, and all about such endowments, that you love to give and take. I want to hear of the dreams, which couldn't be made concrete, and also about those wishes, which have been left incomplete. Let your heart speak, and let your voice be free, let me gain my life- Your silence is killing me...

.......NEW WORLD..........

We want a new world, with lucid sky and spotless earth. We want a new world, with peaceful death and blessed birth. We want a new world, with beam on every face, with charm in every word, with love in every gaze. We want a new world, with no ties and lashes, with no boundaries for dreams, with no margins for wishes. We want a new world, with laughter in mound. We want a new world, with happiness all around...